1 00:00:00,422 --> 00:00:02,164 (MONITOR BEEPING) 2 00:00:02,956 --> 00:00:04,765 You said the pain was intense? 3 00:00:04,930 --> 00:00:06,799 Yeah, it was sharp on both sides. 4 00:00:06,925 --> 00:00:09,007 And it didn't last long? 5 00:00:09,092 --> 00:00:10,659 Just a few minutes. 6 00:00:10,838 --> 00:00:13,341 And nothing in the 24 hours since then? 7 00:00:13,511 --> 00:00:16,650 Mnh-mnh. My O.B. said it was probably round ligament pain. 8 00:00:16,735 --> 00:00:18,453 Yeah, that's basically growing pains. 9 00:00:18,538 --> 00:00:21,275 Your uterus is expanding. So do your ligaments. 10 00:00:21,360 --> 00:00:24,130 Normal fetal heart rate and movement. 11 00:00:24,215 --> 00:00:25,937 Your B.P. is perfect. 12 00:00:26,112 --> 00:00:27,851 Everything seems normal. 13 00:00:27,987 --> 00:00:31,357 Complications and miscarriage are also normal. 14 00:00:31,442 --> 00:00:33,976 Lea's O.B. did not consider every possibility. 15 00:00:34,120 --> 00:00:35,321 Which is why we're here. 16 00:00:35,406 --> 00:00:36,574 Shaun made a list. 17 00:00:36,659 --> 00:00:38,086 And I'm pretty sure he's not going to sleep 18 00:00:38,170 --> 00:00:40,398 until every possibility is ruled out. 19 00:00:40,521 --> 00:00:42,601 I categorized every medical complication 20 00:00:42,686 --> 00:00:45,030 that could negatively impact Lea or the baby 21 00:00:45,115 --> 00:00:47,289 and sorted by Case Fatality Risk. 22 00:00:49,623 --> 00:00:52,693 I'll get started on the tests. 23 00:00:52,778 --> 00:00:55,439 ASHER: Shortness of breath, pulse ox and respiratory rate are dropping. 24 00:00:55,523 --> 00:00:56,570 She needs oxygen. 25 00:00:56,655 --> 00:00:58,312 Maxine Stanley, 87 years young. 26 00:00:58,397 --> 00:00:59,454 She passed out on the dance floor 27 00:00:59,538 --> 00:01:01,632 at a cocktail fundraiser for the Art Deco Society. 28 00:01:01,819 --> 00:01:03,287 (GASPING FOR BREATH) 29 00:01:03,508 --> 00:01:05,643 Art... Art Nouveau. 30 00:01:05,843 --> 00:01:07,058 Oh! 31 00:01:07,143 --> 00:01:08,875 (MONITOR ALARM BEEPING) 32 00:01:08,960 --> 00:01:09,937 She's in v-fib. 33 00:01:10,022 --> 00:01:11,290 Getting the crash cart. 34 00:01:11,424 --> 00:01:12,691 No, look at her bracelet. 35 00:01:12,825 --> 00:01:14,460 The vintage Lalique? It's stunning. 36 00:01:14,593 --> 00:01:15,877 Other wrist. Her medical bracelet. 37 00:01:15,961 --> 00:01:17,250 She signed a DNR. 38 00:01:19,332 --> 00:01:21,114 If we don't do anything, she's gonna go asystolic. 39 00:01:21,198 --> 00:01:22,232 I know. 40 00:01:22,349 --> 00:01:23,890 - But can't we just... - No. 41 00:01:25,252 --> 00:01:26,492 Epinephrine? 42 00:01:26,577 --> 00:01:28,587 Epinephrine doesn't qualify as extraordinary lifesaving measures. 43 00:01:28,671 --> 00:01:30,422 She has a DNR for a reason. 44 00:01:30,507 --> 00:01:32,411 (ALARM CONTINUES) 45 00:01:33,780 --> 00:01:36,150 (FLATLINE) 46 00:01:44,223 --> 00:01:45,691 Time of death, 47 00:01:45,800 --> 00:01:48,503 two twe... (MONITOR BEEPING) 48 00:01:50,678 --> 00:01:52,597 She still has no heartbeat, but her pressure is rising. 49 00:01:52,681 --> 00:01:54,851 Could the machines be screwing up? All of them? 50 00:01:55,975 --> 00:01:58,378 Her oxygen levels are climbing to over 90. 51 00:01:58,589 --> 00:02:00,825 I'm hearing blood flow. 52 00:02:01,193 --> 00:02:02,762 (GASPS) 53 00:02:05,058 --> 00:02:06,560 Oh. 54 00:02:07,691 --> 00:02:09,132 I'm alive? 55 00:02:12,626 --> 00:02:15,835 Which one of you bozos did this? 56 00:02:16,108 --> 00:02:18,296 (SIGHS) 57 00:02:20,738 --> 00:02:22,738 *THE GOOD DOCTOR* Season 04 Episode 16 58 00:02:22,860 --> 00:02:25,031 Episode Title: "Dr. Ted" Aired on: 00:04:49,246 You were treated for lung cancer recently? 115 00:04:49,331 --> 00:04:51,124 Didn't work. (SCOFFS) 116 00:04:51,209 --> 00:04:54,168 All chemo did was make me puke up any decent meal I ate. 117 00:04:54,253 --> 00:04:56,387 You also had a lobectomy to remove the tumors. 118 00:04:56,472 --> 00:04:58,043 They implanted a cardiac device. 119 00:04:58,128 --> 00:04:59,168 A pacemaker. 120 00:04:59,253 --> 00:05:00,819 So I wouldn't die on the table. 121 00:05:00,953 --> 00:05:02,455 It's not a pacemaker. 122 00:05:02,588 --> 00:05:05,051 It's basically a miniature pump inside your heart, 123 00:05:05,136 --> 00:05:07,550 and if your heart stops, it takes over. 124 00:05:09,736 --> 00:05:11,542 Can you turn it off? 125 00:05:14,199 --> 00:05:15,620 (SIGHS) 126 00:05:15,789 --> 00:05:17,156 Then take it out. 127 00:05:20,606 --> 00:05:22,575 Mm, I love it. 128 00:05:22,708 --> 00:05:24,777 It's too big for an infant to swallow, 129 00:05:24,910 --> 00:05:27,144 which means it's only moderately hazardous. 130 00:05:27,229 --> 00:05:29,004 Most good things in life are. 131 00:05:29,089 --> 00:05:30,283 Someday we'll tell our daughter 132 00:05:30,367 --> 00:05:34,440 how Dr. Ted and Dr. Dad both kept her safe. 133 00:05:36,209 --> 00:05:37,408 (KNOCKS ON DOOR) 134 00:05:39,392 --> 00:05:42,011 We have found something. 135 00:05:43,295 --> 00:05:46,354 You have Type 2 vasa previa. 136 00:05:46,439 --> 00:05:49,442 It's when the fetal blood vessels run across the cervix, 137 00:05:49,547 --> 00:05:51,722 making them extremely vulnerable. 138 00:05:51,807 --> 00:05:53,335 (INHALES DEEPLY) 139 00:05:53,420 --> 00:05:55,589 Now, they could rupture at any time, 140 00:05:55,674 --> 00:05:57,342 definitely when your water breaks, 141 00:05:57,476 --> 00:06:00,018 but also under other added stress. 142 00:06:00,221 --> 00:06:04,057 And if that were to happen, how bad would it be? 143 00:06:04,282 --> 00:06:05,651 We... 144 00:06:07,047 --> 00:06:09,073 would lose the baby. 145 00:06:17,480 --> 00:06:20,916 There's a small, secondary placental lobe and multiple vessels at risk. 146 00:06:21,049 --> 00:06:22,285 Gestational age? 147 00:06:22,370 --> 00:06:24,772 22 weeks. Two weeks short of viability. 148 00:06:24,857 --> 00:06:26,393 C-section is not an option. 149 00:06:27,820 --> 00:06:30,657 I suggest fetoscopic laser ablation 150 00:06:30,742 --> 00:06:33,248 to stabilize the vessels and avoid fetal exsanguination. 151 00:06:33,333 --> 00:06:35,133 It's very risky, but has the highest potential 152 00:06:35,218 --> 00:06:36,619 to avoid elective prematurity. 153 00:06:36,761 --> 00:06:38,389 I wrote a preliminary surgical plan. 154 00:06:38,474 --> 00:06:39,792 Should we review it? 155 00:06:39,877 --> 00:06:41,807 Well, I'm familiar with the procedure. Good. 156 00:06:41,930 --> 00:06:45,565 Since you're the head of surgery, you can take the lead. 157 00:06:45,650 --> 00:06:46,651 I will assist. 158 00:06:46,736 --> 00:06:47,840 And Claire showed excellent judgment 159 00:06:47,924 --> 00:06:50,193 ordering the ultrasound, so I would like her to join us. 160 00:06:50,354 --> 00:06:53,423 Also, Jordan has a calming bedside manner. 161 00:06:53,769 --> 00:06:55,382 This is a good team. 162 00:06:55,467 --> 00:06:57,368 I don't disagree. 163 00:06:57,930 --> 00:06:59,784 Except you can't be on it. 164 00:07:01,042 --> 00:07:03,274 Y-Yes, I can. 165 00:07:03,359 --> 00:07:05,175 I reviewed the rules. 166 00:07:05,260 --> 00:07:06,895 It is a conflict of interest 167 00:07:06,980 --> 00:07:09,483 for doctors to operate on family members. 168 00:07:09,568 --> 00:07:12,050 Lea and I are not married, so, mm... is no conflict. 169 00:07:12,135 --> 00:07:14,347 Shaun, Lea is carrying your child. 170 00:07:14,432 --> 00:07:16,767 We aren't operating on the child. 171 00:07:16,852 --> 00:07:18,464 You're citing technicalities. 172 00:07:18,549 --> 00:07:19,682 I am citing the rules. 173 00:07:19,767 --> 00:07:21,303 And why are those rules in place? 174 00:07:21,388 --> 00:07:23,428 So that people with emotional conflicts don't get... 175 00:07:23,513 --> 00:07:25,015 Then the rule should have said that. 176 00:07:25,100 --> 00:07:26,001 It doesn't. It just says... 177 00:07:26,086 --> 00:07:27,287 Shaun. 178 00:07:27,482 --> 00:07:29,150 I care about you and Lea too much 179 00:07:29,235 --> 00:07:31,948 to put your baby's life at risk just to make you feel useful. 180 00:07:39,818 --> 00:07:41,586 You are the president of the hospital. 181 00:07:41,671 --> 00:07:43,375 You can overrule Dr. Lim. 182 00:07:43,460 --> 00:07:44,550 I agree with Lim. 183 00:07:44,635 --> 00:07:47,512 Everyone, including you, is always telling me 184 00:07:47,597 --> 00:07:48,937 I'm not emotional enough, 185 00:07:49,022 --> 00:07:51,018 and now you are saying that I am too emotional? 186 00:07:51,103 --> 00:07:54,173 Are you not angry right now, Shaun? 187 00:07:54,258 --> 00:07:55,659 Are you not scared? 188 00:07:56,300 --> 00:07:57,753 You're as emotional as anyone. 189 00:07:57,838 --> 00:07:59,806 Maybe you don't have access to it, 190 00:07:59,891 --> 00:08:02,460 maybe you don't understand... Well, nobody understands it. 191 00:08:02,545 --> 00:08:04,753 It's just that that's not the issue. 192 00:08:07,200 --> 00:08:11,271 If I hadn't been scared, we wouldn't be here. 193 00:08:11,356 --> 00:08:13,491 I wouldn't have ordered the tests, 194 00:08:13,576 --> 00:08:15,706 and Lea would have lost the baby. 195 00:08:16,372 --> 00:08:18,706 My emotion helped. 196 00:08:21,627 --> 00:08:22,928 (SIGHS) 197 00:08:23,013 --> 00:08:24,881 Dr. Lim made the right call. 198 00:08:27,927 --> 00:08:29,592 Considering Maxine's age, 199 00:08:29,677 --> 00:08:32,029 stopping her heart and placing her on bypass 200 00:08:32,114 --> 00:08:33,782 is way too risky. 201 00:08:34,810 --> 00:08:37,034 What about robotic-assisted surgery? 202 00:08:37,119 --> 00:08:39,169 Adapt the approach used in cardiac tumors 203 00:08:39,254 --> 00:08:41,356 to remove the device while her heart's still beating. 204 00:08:41,490 --> 00:08:42,958 I'm sorry, but should we really 205 00:08:43,091 --> 00:08:44,925 be operating on this woman at all? 206 00:08:45,010 --> 00:08:47,680 A DNR is one thing, but now we're considering 207 00:08:47,765 --> 00:08:50,435 an experimental elective surgery for the sole purpose 208 00:08:50,520 --> 00:08:52,089 of facilitating the patient's death. 209 00:08:52,174 --> 00:08:54,251 The patient agreed to the device to save her life, 210 00:08:54,336 --> 00:08:55,417 not prolong her death. 211 00:08:55,502 --> 00:08:58,518 Is that what we're doing when we treat terminally ill patients? 212 00:08:59,115 --> 00:09:00,214 She's making a mistake. 213 00:09:00,299 --> 00:09:01,886 She's making a choice. 214 00:09:01,994 --> 00:09:03,175 Which is hers to make. 215 00:09:03,260 --> 00:09:04,595 But it doesn't make sense. 216 00:09:04,680 --> 00:09:05,706 She's more full of life 217 00:09:05,791 --> 00:09:07,582 than any patient I've treated this month. 218 00:09:07,667 --> 00:09:09,198 So talk to her. 219 00:09:09,353 --> 00:09:11,155 Make her change her mind. 220 00:09:11,546 --> 00:09:13,381 Or maybe she'll change yours. 221 00:09:25,501 --> 00:09:26,735 (SIGHS SOFTLY) 222 00:09:57,900 --> 00:09:59,768 I love you, too. 223 00:10:05,523 --> 00:10:06,924 Pong. 224 00:10:07,009 --> 00:10:09,044 I've been waiting for that Red Dragon. 225 00:10:13,951 --> 00:10:16,053 You're ready for your close-up, Ms. Stanley. 226 00:10:16,288 --> 00:10:18,558 A "Sunset Boulevard" reference. 227 00:10:18,643 --> 00:10:21,354 And you were born, what, 10 years ago? 228 00:10:21,526 --> 00:10:22,641 (CHUCKLES) I've never seen it, 229 00:10:22,725 --> 00:10:25,728 but my Bubbe... Uh, grandmother, 230 00:10:25,861 --> 00:10:27,854 used to say it all the time. 231 00:10:28,100 --> 00:10:29,831 She's the one who taught me Mah Jong. 232 00:10:29,916 --> 00:10:32,753 Well, was she as naive as you think I am? 233 00:10:34,468 --> 00:10:36,803 You have better things to do, young man. 234 00:10:36,945 --> 00:10:40,284 And at this point in my life, I don't need any new friends. 235 00:10:44,913 --> 00:10:46,503 Do you want to die? 236 00:10:46,588 --> 00:10:48,856 (CHUCKLING) Something only the young would ask. 237 00:10:49,013 --> 00:10:51,216 Thinking there's actually an option. 238 00:10:51,301 --> 00:10:52,935 Well, sometimes, if you're lucky, 239 00:10:53,055 --> 00:10:55,307 there's a choice about when. 240 00:10:56,176 --> 00:10:58,509 And sometimes, if you're really lucky, 241 00:10:58,632 --> 00:11:00,366 there's a choice about how. 242 00:11:01,922 --> 00:11:04,073 I want to die on the dance floor 243 00:11:04,551 --> 00:11:07,862 with a song in my heart, drink in my hand. 244 00:11:08,270 --> 00:11:10,753 You want me to die a few months later, 245 00:11:10,838 --> 00:11:14,831 in pain, not knowing who I am or where I am. 246 00:11:16,019 --> 00:11:19,581 Forgive me for not saying thanks for the opportunity. 247 00:11:20,382 --> 00:11:21,667 Ah! 248 00:11:21,752 --> 00:11:23,220 Mah jongg. 249 00:11:28,616 --> 00:11:30,651 (MONITOR BEEPING) 250 00:11:35,880 --> 00:11:37,722 MORGAN: Feels weird, right? 251 00:11:37,904 --> 00:11:39,617 Watching other people do your job 252 00:11:39,702 --> 00:11:41,722 is like being the understudy in a Broadway show. 253 00:11:41,925 --> 00:11:43,426 Or a couple college musicals. 254 00:11:43,511 --> 00:11:44,912 Basically the same thing. 255 00:11:45,016 --> 00:11:47,218 I should be part of the surgical team. 256 00:11:47,303 --> 00:11:51,011 I have studied every aspect of this surgery extensively. 257 00:11:52,887 --> 00:11:56,182 You know, I never expected to take you seriously as a surgeon. 258 00:11:56,836 --> 00:11:58,538 I never saw you as competition 259 00:11:58,623 --> 00:12:01,002 until that aortic dissection our second year. 260 00:12:01,087 --> 00:12:04,267 There was surprise clotting in the false lumen. 261 00:12:04,352 --> 00:12:06,354 Which you performed flawlessly. 262 00:12:06,439 --> 00:12:08,761 That's when I realized I'd underestimated you. 263 00:12:09,131 --> 00:12:13,300 Just like Dr. Lim is underestimating me now. 264 00:12:14,299 --> 00:12:16,001 No, Shaun. 265 00:12:16,095 --> 00:12:17,663 You didn't become a better doctor 266 00:12:17,748 --> 00:12:19,816 because of that surgery with Melendez. 267 00:12:19,945 --> 00:12:22,675 I became less of an idiot and finally realized 268 00:12:22,760 --> 00:12:26,193 I wasn't the only person here capable of doing great work. 269 00:12:27,801 --> 00:12:29,302 Lea's in good hands. 270 00:12:29,530 --> 00:12:31,511 Even if they're not your hands. 271 00:12:47,487 --> 00:12:49,123 (BIRDS CHIRPING) 272 00:12:49,356 --> 00:12:51,307 (MONITOR BEEPING, FETAL HEARTBEAT WHOOSHING) 273 00:12:54,736 --> 00:12:56,300 The baby is fine. 274 00:12:56,838 --> 00:12:59,097 Dr. Lim did an excellent job. 275 00:12:59,182 --> 00:13:01,401 So did Claire and Dr. Allen. 276 00:13:01,486 --> 00:13:05,214 The vessel is healing, but still vulnerable. 277 00:13:05,299 --> 00:13:09,103 Also, the baby needs steroids to speed lung development. 278 00:13:09,188 --> 00:13:12,331 We will recheck the ultrasound in 24 and 48 hours. 279 00:13:12,416 --> 00:13:15,319 Until then, all we can do is watch and wait. 280 00:13:16,109 --> 00:13:17,292 (SIGHS) 281 00:13:17,377 --> 00:13:21,604 At least I know the password to the good Wi-Fi. 282 00:13:27,791 --> 00:13:29,559 (KEYS CLICKING) 283 00:13:30,476 --> 00:13:31,977 You okay? 284 00:13:32,172 --> 00:13:33,089 If you're researching 285 00:13:33,174 --> 00:13:34,612 which steroid is most effective... 286 00:13:34,697 --> 00:13:35,409 I'm not. 287 00:13:35,494 --> 00:13:37,495 I'm trying to take my mind off of the baby 288 00:13:37,580 --> 00:13:39,282 and what can go wrong 289 00:13:39,367 --> 00:13:41,536 and all the other things I can do nothing about 290 00:13:41,621 --> 00:13:45,058 and focus on something I can do well... my job. 291 00:13:46,016 --> 00:13:47,984 (SIGHS) 292 00:13:50,990 --> 00:13:53,058 Is that helping? 293 00:13:54,081 --> 00:13:55,250 It could be. 294 00:14:05,594 --> 00:14:07,245 Go do your job. 295 00:14:21,471 --> 00:14:23,984 ANDREWS: Robotic-assisted left anterior 296 00:14:24,069 --> 00:14:27,106 thoracoscopic removal of a cardiac device. 297 00:14:27,191 --> 00:14:28,948 Who wants to write the paper with me? 298 00:14:30,784 --> 00:14:31,831 (CHUCKLES) 299 00:14:32,053 --> 00:14:33,682 Assuming it works. 300 00:14:35,686 --> 00:14:36,753 Shaun. 301 00:14:36,845 --> 00:14:38,245 Wasn't aware you'd be joining us. 302 00:14:38,397 --> 00:14:41,136 This surgery is interesting and very complicated, 303 00:14:41,221 --> 00:14:43,123 and I don't care about the patient at all. 304 00:14:43,208 --> 00:14:45,768 It seems like an excellent distraction. 305 00:14:46,747 --> 00:14:48,716 Can always use another set of eyes. 306 00:14:48,966 --> 00:14:51,675 I'm sorry about Lea. If there's anything I can do... 307 00:14:51,818 --> 00:14:52,870 No, you can't. 308 00:14:52,955 --> 00:14:54,323 As a first-year resident, 309 00:14:54,408 --> 00:14:56,911 you're one of the least-qualified doctors here. 310 00:14:56,996 --> 00:14:58,776 There's more scarring around the device 311 00:14:58,885 --> 00:15:00,187 than the imaging showed. 312 00:15:00,272 --> 00:15:02,607 We're gonna need to free it before we can remove it. 313 00:15:02,692 --> 00:15:04,294 Clamp is loaded. 314 00:15:04,379 --> 00:15:06,314 Let's begin with the outflow cannula. 315 00:15:06,399 --> 00:15:07,715 We'll see if our patient can tolerate it. 316 00:15:07,799 --> 00:15:09,834 (MACHINE WHIRRING) 317 00:15:15,974 --> 00:15:17,742 Vitals are stable. 318 00:15:17,899 --> 00:15:19,354 EKG is good. 319 00:15:19,927 --> 00:15:22,401 EKG is good. This is excellent. 320 00:15:22,496 --> 00:15:24,565 I am completely focused, 321 00:15:24,650 --> 00:15:27,581 not thinking about Lea or how we could lose the baby. 322 00:15:31,589 --> 00:15:33,123 Fetal heart rate is 125. 323 00:15:33,208 --> 00:15:36,589 Mom's B.P. is 110 over 60. Vitals are normal. 324 00:15:36,674 --> 00:15:39,510 There was some fluid leakage, so Dr. Allen checked for PROM. 325 00:15:39,595 --> 00:15:41,659 Negative, and no contractions. 326 00:15:41,755 --> 00:15:43,284 LIM: Let's confirm it's amniotic fluid, 327 00:15:43,369 --> 00:15:44,628 then test for an LandS ratio 328 00:15:44,713 --> 00:15:47,417 to see how the lungs are responding to the steroids. 329 00:15:48,221 --> 00:15:49,522 How do you feel? 330 00:15:49,607 --> 00:15:52,042 I don't speak "doctor," but if I were a car, 331 00:15:52,127 --> 00:15:54,893 fluid leakage would be a problem. 332 00:15:55,405 --> 00:15:58,026 Amniotic fluid can leak slightly after surgery. 333 00:15:58,111 --> 00:15:59,715 It's just something for us to keep an eye on. 334 00:15:59,799 --> 00:16:01,100 Right. 335 00:16:01,755 --> 00:16:03,409 Wait and see. 336 00:16:06,313 --> 00:16:09,104 - Where is Dr. Ted? - Who? 337 00:16:09,189 --> 00:16:11,254 The toy Shaun brought for the baby. It was right here. 338 00:16:11,338 --> 00:16:13,410 What kind of mother loses her baby's first teddy bear? 339 00:16:13,494 --> 00:16:14,913 - Lea, it's fine. One of the nurses probably... - No, it's not. 340 00:16:14,997 --> 00:16:17,276 It's fine, it's just... He's right here. 341 00:16:17,458 --> 00:16:18,626 (EXHALES SHARPLY) 342 00:16:19,785 --> 00:16:21,026 Thank you. 343 00:16:26,945 --> 00:16:30,891 Being in the hospital trying to protect your child 344 00:16:30,976 --> 00:16:34,683 is a terrifying, awful, lonely feeling, 345 00:16:34,768 --> 00:16:37,738 and there's nothing as a doctor I can say to make it better. 346 00:16:37,875 --> 00:16:39,362 But as your friend, 347 00:16:39,447 --> 00:16:42,558 I can let you know you're not alone. 348 00:16:44,400 --> 00:16:47,276 ANDREWS: Isabel and I have been trying to have a family. 349 00:16:48,142 --> 00:16:51,012 I've almost lost track of how many IVF cycles. 350 00:16:51,379 --> 00:16:54,882 People come over and ask how it's going. 351 00:16:54,967 --> 00:16:57,628 We say, "Getting close," whatever that means. 352 00:16:57,734 --> 00:16:59,636 Mostly, it's just an answer designed 353 00:16:59,721 --> 00:17:02,524 to get people to stop asking questions. 354 00:17:02,815 --> 00:17:04,783 CLAIRE: I've been scared since I was a kid. 355 00:17:05,065 --> 00:17:08,354 If I could just be better, 356 00:17:08,530 --> 00:17:10,847 a better... Better daughter, 357 00:17:10,932 --> 00:17:12,626 better student, a better doctor, 358 00:17:12,711 --> 00:17:15,680 then I could stop bad things from happening. 359 00:17:15,961 --> 00:17:20,376 But when Melendez died, I finally realized 360 00:17:20,461 --> 00:17:24,157 that life is not something you're supposed to control. 361 00:17:25,610 --> 00:17:27,798 It's something you're supposed to share. 362 00:17:28,563 --> 00:17:29,731 PARK: Eight months pregnant, 363 00:17:29,824 --> 00:17:31,524 Mia and I had everything planned. 364 00:17:31,609 --> 00:17:34,345 Bags packed, alternate routes to the hospital. 365 00:17:34,430 --> 00:17:37,477 Mia's water breaks at the mall. 366 00:17:37,975 --> 00:17:40,878 Nothing went the way it was supposed to go. 367 00:17:40,963 --> 00:17:43,298 And it was the best day of my life. 368 00:17:43,753 --> 00:17:46,890 JORDAN: I thought I was ready, but when I lost Junior... 369 00:17:48,627 --> 00:17:51,306 It took a long time for me to stop blaming myself. 370 00:17:53,365 --> 00:17:55,110 A year later, I got a cat. 371 00:17:55,195 --> 00:17:56,618 That helped. 372 00:17:56,703 --> 00:17:59,340 You... You lost a child, and you got a cat? 373 00:17:59,565 --> 00:18:01,517 Junior was my tortoise. 374 00:18:01,602 --> 00:18:02,542 Oh. 375 00:18:02,627 --> 00:18:03,868 First pet I ever owned. 376 00:18:03,953 --> 00:18:06,595 (LAUGHTER) That should've been at the beginning of the story, 377 00:18:06,701 --> 00:18:07,642 Dr. Allen. 378 00:18:07,766 --> 00:18:09,556 I wasn't the one who left the gate open. 379 00:18:09,923 --> 00:18:12,056 Your tortoise ran away? 380 00:18:13,453 --> 00:18:16,024 (LAUGHTER) 381 00:18:20,102 --> 00:18:22,318 Your amniotic fluid levels are stable. 382 00:18:22,452 --> 00:18:23,807 That is good. 383 00:18:23,892 --> 00:18:26,306 We need a plan in case your water breaks at the mall. 384 00:18:26,391 --> 00:18:29,252 I take it that's a specific concern you heard about from...? 385 00:18:29,337 --> 00:18:30,885 Dr. Park says his wife... 386 00:18:30,970 --> 00:18:32,428 Stop talking to people. 387 00:18:33,149 --> 00:18:34,481 Okay. 388 00:18:34,630 --> 00:18:38,468 There are three surgeries I'm thinking of using to distract me next. 389 00:18:38,601 --> 00:18:40,300 - One is a gallbladder removal... - (BREATHES DEEPLY) 390 00:18:40,384 --> 00:18:42,304 - ...which sounds very boring, but it... - Shaun. 391 00:18:42,431 --> 00:18:44,674 (GASPS) Wha... What...? 392 00:18:44,759 --> 00:18:46,142 (GASPING) 393 00:18:49,548 --> 00:18:51,869 Lower extremity swelling and shortness of breath 394 00:18:51,954 --> 00:18:53,439 are symptoms of a pulmonary embolism. 395 00:18:53,524 --> 00:18:55,142 Page Dr. Browne! 396 00:18:58,714 --> 00:19:00,916 Congratulations, Mrs. Stanley. 397 00:19:01,206 --> 00:19:02,673 The surgery was a success. 398 00:19:02,793 --> 00:19:05,862 (CHUCKLES) Success feels like I've been run over by a truck. 399 00:19:05,996 --> 00:19:07,764 Surgery takes a toll. 400 00:19:07,898 --> 00:19:10,066 You'll get a set of instructions for post-op care. 401 00:19:10,151 --> 00:19:12,635 Healthy food choices, limiting activities... 402 00:19:12,720 --> 00:19:14,752 And I can throw those instructions 403 00:19:14,837 --> 00:19:16,900 in the trash for you, or you can do that yourself. 404 00:19:16,985 --> 00:19:19,058 We'll give you something for the pain and some antibiotics 405 00:19:19,142 --> 00:19:21,011 for a small infection around the surgical site. 406 00:19:21,144 --> 00:19:22,628 Then you'll be back to the dance floor, 407 00:19:22,712 --> 00:19:24,832 low blood pressure and erratic heart rhythm be damned. 408 00:19:28,896 --> 00:19:30,664 (SIGHS) 409 00:19:33,797 --> 00:19:34,865 Let me. 410 00:19:36,492 --> 00:19:40,321 I-I don't turn over Rouge Dior to just anyone. 411 00:19:41,865 --> 00:19:44,485 Thank you for the vote of confidence. 412 00:19:55,678 --> 00:19:56,712 Mm. 413 00:19:56,847 --> 00:19:58,581 Nice job. 414 00:19:58,714 --> 00:20:00,084 Same bubbe. 415 00:20:00,169 --> 00:20:01,236 (LAUGHS) 416 00:20:04,298 --> 00:20:06,089 So, Dr. Wolke, 417 00:20:06,479 --> 00:20:08,416 what's on your agenda this time? 418 00:20:08,501 --> 00:20:09,625 This time... 419 00:20:09,922 --> 00:20:11,454 I just like you. 420 00:20:12,074 --> 00:20:14,111 So, what are you gonna do? 421 00:20:14,196 --> 00:20:16,142 You gonna keep going to Art Nouveau parties? 422 00:20:16,227 --> 00:20:17,800 You say that like it's a bad thing. 423 00:20:17,934 --> 00:20:18,935 It's not a bad thing. 424 00:20:19,020 --> 00:20:21,970 It's just not a... meaningful thing. 425 00:20:24,374 --> 00:20:27,743 My bubbe died when I was in med school. 426 00:20:27,835 --> 00:20:30,798 I can't tell you what I'd give for a little more time with her. 427 00:20:33,200 --> 00:20:35,657 May her memories be a blessing. 428 00:20:38,164 --> 00:20:39,509 (SIGHS) 429 00:20:40,324 --> 00:20:42,368 Family is important. 430 00:20:43,593 --> 00:20:46,162 I have a favorite nephew. 431 00:20:46,623 --> 00:20:48,985 It'll be nice to spend more time with him. 432 00:20:51,628 --> 00:20:53,463 And a few others. 433 00:20:57,673 --> 00:20:59,342 CLAIRE: There. 434 00:20:59,475 --> 00:21:02,678 The clot is in the lower right pulmonary artery. 435 00:21:02,812 --> 00:21:03,980 JORDAN: It's small. 436 00:21:04,114 --> 00:21:05,681 Could we use TPA to dissolve it? 437 00:21:05,815 --> 00:21:09,285 Anticoagulants are too risky during pregnancy. 438 00:21:09,419 --> 00:21:11,321 Maybe we just keep an eye on the clot 439 00:21:11,454 --> 00:21:13,477 and hope it breaks up on its own. 440 00:21:13,562 --> 00:21:16,107 Bed rest increases the likelihood of more clots. 441 00:21:16,192 --> 00:21:18,470 I think we should insert an IVC filter. 442 00:21:18,555 --> 00:21:20,846 That would trap future clots before they get to the lungs. 443 00:21:20,931 --> 00:21:22,048 It's hard to know what the stress 444 00:21:22,132 --> 00:21:23,920 of another procedure will do, 445 00:21:24,005 --> 00:21:26,009 but I think we should risk it. 446 00:21:27,137 --> 00:21:29,220 Shaun, what do you think? 447 00:21:32,575 --> 00:21:33,876 I... 448 00:21:34,010 --> 00:21:35,876 Trust your judgment. 449 00:21:40,539 --> 00:21:41,707 Hey. 450 00:21:41,817 --> 00:21:43,153 Have you seen Dr. Andrews? 451 00:21:43,286 --> 00:21:44,771 I want to see if he'll talk to our oncology group 452 00:21:44,855 --> 00:21:46,868 about enrolling Mrs. Stanley into a clinical trial. 453 00:21:46,988 --> 00:21:49,157 What happened to dancing and drinking until she dies? 454 00:21:50,172 --> 00:21:53,126 Well, I think I sold her on a little pain 455 00:21:53,211 --> 00:21:54,416 for a little more life. 456 00:21:54,501 --> 00:21:56,114 That's... great. 457 00:21:56,199 --> 00:21:58,317 Which one of your patients rented the gourmet taco truck 458 00:21:58,401 --> 00:22:00,036 that's blocking the clinic entrance? 459 00:22:00,185 --> 00:22:02,485 If they're serving carnitas, I want in. 460 00:22:02,760 --> 00:22:05,663 FRANK SINATRA'S "I'M GONNA LIVE TILL I DIE" PLAYS... 461 00:22:06,109 --> 00:22:09,479 ♪♪ I'm gonna live till I die 462 00:22:09,612 --> 00:22:12,748 ♪♪ I'm gonna laugh 'stead of cry 463 00:22:12,882 --> 00:22:16,552 ♪♪ I'm gonna take the town and turn it upside down 464 00:22:16,693 --> 00:22:19,997 Doctors, welcome to my going-away soiree. 465 00:22:20,123 --> 00:22:21,564 If you want some beads, 466 00:22:21,649 --> 00:22:22,822 you're going to have to show a little... 467 00:22:22,906 --> 00:22:23,974 Not happening, Maxine. 468 00:22:24,162 --> 00:22:25,977 And as much as we understand your desire 469 00:22:26,062 --> 00:22:27,813 to get back to partying, we have hospital rules about... 470 00:22:27,897 --> 00:22:29,365 Oh, sue me. 471 00:22:29,499 --> 00:22:31,234 Or, more accurately, sue my estate. 472 00:22:31,367 --> 00:22:32,702 (CHUCKLES) 473 00:22:33,165 --> 00:22:35,905 I am sorry about your grandmother, Asher, 474 00:22:36,039 --> 00:22:38,259 but what you missed isn't more time. 475 00:22:38,344 --> 00:22:39,946 It was a chance to say goodbye. 476 00:22:40,043 --> 00:22:41,577 ♪♪ I'll be a devil... 477 00:22:41,711 --> 00:22:43,524 Thank you for giving me that chance. 478 00:22:44,392 --> 00:22:46,227 I've decided to refuse the antibiotics. 479 00:22:46,416 --> 00:22:48,384 ♪♪ Gonna dance♪♪ 480 00:22:48,518 --> 00:22:50,953 Without antibiotics, you'll develop sepsis 481 00:22:51,087 --> 00:22:53,657 and be in cardiogenic shock in as little as 24 hours. 482 00:22:56,616 --> 00:22:58,151 I don't understand. 483 00:22:58,394 --> 00:23:00,002 Why are you doing this? 484 00:23:00,087 --> 00:23:02,132 Because it's my life. 485 00:23:02,412 --> 00:23:03,613 All of it... 486 00:23:05,705 --> 00:23:07,707 Including the ending. 487 00:23:12,175 --> 00:23:13,944 (MONITOR BEEPING STEADILY) 488 00:23:15,032 --> 00:23:16,595 (BREATHES DEEPLY) 489 00:23:17,259 --> 00:23:21,455 Placing an IVC filter is a safe procedure 490 00:23:21,540 --> 00:23:23,590 with a very low complication rate, 491 00:23:23,675 --> 00:23:26,477 and Claire is an excellent doctor. 492 00:23:28,542 --> 00:23:29,977 Shaun. 493 00:23:31,589 --> 00:23:33,946 It's okay to be scared. 494 00:23:34,977 --> 00:23:37,813 But it's not helpful. 495 00:23:37,985 --> 00:23:40,758 I want to make things better. 496 00:23:42,356 --> 00:23:43,969 I don't know how. 497 00:23:50,938 --> 00:23:52,211 Look. 498 00:23:54,542 --> 00:23:56,076 That's going to be us. 499 00:23:57,785 --> 00:24:00,079 You don't need to fix things, Shaun. 500 00:24:00,164 --> 00:24:04,709 Just... believe with me that we're gonna get through this 501 00:24:04,794 --> 00:24:06,963 and that the three of us are going home. 502 00:24:10,291 --> 00:24:12,626 (BABY FUSSING) 503 00:24:19,375 --> 00:24:22,085 GLASSMAN: Somebody needs to check your oxygen, young lady, 504 00:24:22,169 --> 00:24:23,401 because you're not making any sense. 505 00:24:23,485 --> 00:24:24,485 I told you. 506 00:24:24,572 --> 00:24:26,798 I am not delirious, Dr. Glassman. 507 00:24:26,883 --> 00:24:28,603 I just happen to have my own opinion. 508 00:24:28,688 --> 00:24:30,040 It's not a matter of opinion. 509 00:24:30,125 --> 00:24:31,790 It's a matter of absolute fact. 510 00:24:31,875 --> 00:24:34,697 Ted Williams was the greatest Baseball player of all time. 511 00:24:34,782 --> 00:24:36,199 End of discussion, full stop. 512 00:24:36,284 --> 00:24:37,785 Ted Williams was good. 513 00:24:37,918 --> 00:24:39,750 Not exactly a hot take, 514 00:24:39,835 --> 00:24:43,506 but John Paciorek beat Ted Williams like a drum. 515 00:24:43,591 --> 00:24:47,139 Only player to bat a thousand in Major League Baseball. 516 00:24:47,232 --> 00:24:48,322 - Now you're gonna say... - I am. 517 00:24:48,406 --> 00:24:51,040 - ..."But John Paciorek only played one game." - Played one game! 518 00:24:51,125 --> 00:24:52,715 - That's right. - And I'm gonna say, 519 00:24:52,824 --> 00:24:56,260 Baseball wasn't fully integrated until 1959, 520 00:24:56,345 --> 00:24:58,381 a year before Williams retired. 521 00:24:58,466 --> 00:25:00,301 Numbers aren't everything, Dr. Glassman. 522 00:25:00,469 --> 00:25:02,371 More does not mean better. 523 00:25:02,456 --> 00:25:04,658 Not in life, not in Baseball, 524 00:25:04,878 --> 00:25:06,665 maybe in tacos. 525 00:25:06,750 --> 00:25:09,932 Alright, why are we talking Baseball and tacos? 526 00:25:10,017 --> 00:25:11,454 Have you had one? 527 00:25:11,539 --> 00:25:12,924 I've had four, and they're wonderful. Mm. 528 00:25:13,008 --> 00:25:15,313 And you would make an excellent lawyer. - (LAUGHS) 529 00:25:15,398 --> 00:25:17,307 You know, I haven't had this much tongue in my mouth 530 00:25:17,391 --> 00:25:18,774 since Woodstock. 531 00:25:19,537 --> 00:25:22,361 Well, some of us think that you might be a little crazy. 532 00:25:22,446 --> 00:25:23,579 A little. 533 00:25:23,664 --> 00:25:25,137 Some people can't tell the difference 534 00:25:25,222 --> 00:25:27,102 between crazy and happy. 535 00:25:27,187 --> 00:25:28,788 Either way, you're perfectly capable 536 00:25:28,873 --> 00:25:30,175 of making your own decision. 537 00:25:30,260 --> 00:25:32,895 Now, I'm gonna leave this lovely party. 538 00:25:33,106 --> 00:25:34,473 Excuse me. 539 00:25:35,556 --> 00:25:37,493 Just do me one favor, will you? 540 00:25:37,711 --> 00:25:39,243 Keep the volume down. 541 00:25:42,172 --> 00:25:44,174 It was a pleasure to meet you. 542 00:25:44,557 --> 00:25:46,094 Pleasure to meet you. 543 00:25:58,540 --> 00:26:00,704 Are those Maxine's new ABG results? 544 00:26:00,789 --> 00:26:02,123 No. 545 00:26:07,769 --> 00:26:08,852 If you want to talk... 546 00:26:08,937 --> 00:26:12,807 Why are you so upset about Mrs. Stanley refusing treatment? 547 00:26:13,142 --> 00:26:16,540 She has terminal cancer. She is dying. 548 00:26:16,765 --> 00:26:18,477 Doctors can't fix that. 549 00:26:22,823 --> 00:26:24,321 I know my family loved me, 550 00:26:24,458 --> 00:26:27,243 but they didn't... see me. 551 00:26:28,872 --> 00:26:30,750 Except my grandmother. 552 00:26:30,835 --> 00:26:33,482 She'd catch my eye at Shabbat dinner 553 00:26:33,567 --> 00:26:35,922 and make some ridiculous face 554 00:26:36,007 --> 00:26:37,909 so I'd laugh and get sent to my room, 555 00:26:37,994 --> 00:26:39,696 and that's where I'd find it. 556 00:26:39,795 --> 00:26:42,298 A book or music 557 00:26:42,383 --> 00:26:47,125 or something verboten she thought I'd like. 558 00:26:48,965 --> 00:26:51,133 She passed away a few years ago. 559 00:26:52,405 --> 00:26:58,383 More time would've meant... everything. 560 00:27:00,889 --> 00:27:02,791 Time is hope. 561 00:27:03,891 --> 00:27:06,829 (FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING) 562 00:27:06,975 --> 00:27:09,696 ABG results for Mrs. Maxine Stanley. 563 00:27:17,773 --> 00:27:19,475 (DOOR OPENS) 564 00:27:30,469 --> 00:27:32,771 (SIGHS) 565 00:28:11,863 --> 00:28:14,031 (SIGHS) 566 00:28:27,831 --> 00:28:30,033 Right before inserting the IVC filter, 567 00:28:30,401 --> 00:28:32,790 I ordered a non-stress test 568 00:28:32,875 --> 00:28:35,511 to make sure the baby could tolerate the procedure. 569 00:28:35,596 --> 00:28:36,948 That's when I noticed the heart rate 570 00:28:37,032 --> 00:28:39,401 had been getting progressively slower. 571 00:28:39,630 --> 00:28:42,499 So, after we implanted the filter, 572 00:28:42,696 --> 00:28:45,719 I ordered a Doppler ultrasound. 573 00:28:46,567 --> 00:28:48,536 The tracing of the umbilical artery 574 00:28:48,669 --> 00:28:51,133 was dampened with flow reversal. 575 00:28:53,537 --> 00:28:56,406 There wasn't just one clot, Shaun, there were two. 576 00:28:56,518 --> 00:28:57,719 One we couldn't see 577 00:28:57,804 --> 00:29:00,555 because it was lodged in the umbilical artery. 578 00:29:02,591 --> 00:29:05,394 Maybe I made a mistake or I missed something. 579 00:29:05,746 --> 00:29:09,680 I-I really, really want to be wrong about this, Shaun. 580 00:29:10,941 --> 00:29:12,575 You aren't wrong. 581 00:29:15,682 --> 00:29:20,352 I saw the test results on the amniotic fluid. 582 00:29:21,918 --> 00:29:24,620 The lungs aren't responding to the steroids. 583 00:29:24,705 --> 00:29:26,375 The baby can't survive. 584 00:29:32,187 --> 00:29:33,521 I'm sorry. 585 00:29:35,836 --> 00:29:37,470 Did you talk to Lea? 586 00:29:37,985 --> 00:29:39,319 No. 587 00:29:44,152 --> 00:29:46,649 I couldn't protect Lea. 588 00:29:49,435 --> 00:29:55,266 The only thing I can do for her now is give her more time... 589 00:29:57,282 --> 00:29:58,750 To hope. 590 00:30:02,405 --> 00:30:04,969 I don't think you're doing this for Lea. 591 00:30:05,956 --> 00:30:08,492 I think you're protecting yourself 592 00:30:08,649 --> 00:30:11,000 from the pain of watching her pain. 593 00:30:24,168 --> 00:30:25,961 Would you like me to be there? 594 00:30:30,904 --> 00:30:33,173 No. Thank you. 595 00:30:46,019 --> 00:30:48,689 (MONITOR BEEPING) 596 00:31:20,520 --> 00:31:24,892 (SOBBING) 597 00:31:58,561 --> 00:32:00,197 Crap. 598 00:32:02,118 --> 00:32:03,520 (SIGHS) 599 00:32:05,309 --> 00:32:07,013 (SWITCH CLICKS) 600 00:32:09,810 --> 00:32:11,578 There was nothing anyone could have done 601 00:32:11,712 --> 00:32:13,599 that would have made any difference. 602 00:32:14,650 --> 00:32:16,872 And nothing about this affects your chances 603 00:32:16,957 --> 00:32:19,093 of having a healthy baby later. 604 00:32:23,207 --> 00:32:25,255 What do we do now? 605 00:32:27,828 --> 00:32:29,795 Medically, you have two choices. 606 00:32:29,887 --> 00:32:32,380 You can be sedated and have a DandC. 607 00:32:32,766 --> 00:32:35,136 Or some people decide to induce labor 608 00:32:35,269 --> 00:32:37,013 so they can hold their child. 609 00:32:38,772 --> 00:32:40,521 (EXHALES SHAKILY) 610 00:32:43,447 --> 00:32:46,595 Uh, c-could you give us a minute? 611 00:32:46,821 --> 00:32:48,289 Of course. 612 00:32:56,536 --> 00:33:00,442 Do you want to discuss risks and benefits? 613 00:33:00,527 --> 00:33:01,942 No. 614 00:33:02,027 --> 00:33:04,599 I don't need any more information. 615 00:33:09,114 --> 00:33:10,856 We've lost her. 616 00:33:14,222 --> 00:33:15,583 We lost her, 617 00:33:15,668 --> 00:33:19,185 and this isn't about medical questions anymore. 618 00:33:26,247 --> 00:33:30,177 I can't go into labor and not leave here with our baby. 619 00:33:30,878 --> 00:33:32,480 (CRYING) 620 00:33:44,311 --> 00:33:45,645 PARK: Remarkable. 621 00:33:45,730 --> 00:33:48,133 Swelling's down, trends are improving. 622 00:33:48,268 --> 00:33:50,591 Your infection appears to be clearing on its own. 623 00:33:51,334 --> 00:33:53,575 Apparently, life isn't done with you yet. 624 00:33:58,019 --> 00:34:00,427 Yesterday was one of the, 625 00:34:00,512 --> 00:34:04,950 the best days I've had in a long time. 626 00:34:05,792 --> 00:34:07,761 Not because of the party. 627 00:34:08,862 --> 00:34:10,264 Because of the memories. 628 00:34:10,397 --> 00:34:11,598 (CHUCKLES) 629 00:34:11,732 --> 00:34:14,668 Midnight taco runs with my college roommates. 630 00:34:14,801 --> 00:34:18,435 My sister messing up the words to my favorite song. 631 00:34:18,520 --> 00:34:19,706 (LAUGHS) 632 00:34:19,840 --> 00:34:23,481 Arguing with my husband, 633 00:34:23,944 --> 00:34:26,247 who served the best margaritas. 634 00:34:27,542 --> 00:34:31,575 (VOICE BREAKING) I... I've had a wonderful life 635 00:34:31,660 --> 00:34:34,406 and with wonderful people. 636 00:34:34,491 --> 00:34:37,935 Maxine, there's no reason you can't have more of that. 637 00:34:40,094 --> 00:34:41,606 They're gone. 638 00:34:46,089 --> 00:34:48,224 And now I, uh... 639 00:34:50,086 --> 00:34:52,224 I have to go home alone. 640 00:34:54,708 --> 00:34:56,443 (BREATHES SHAKILY) 641 00:35:07,169 --> 00:35:09,833 Pretty incredible that a woman of her age, 642 00:35:09,918 --> 00:35:12,187 ravaged by cancer, 643 00:35:12,463 --> 00:35:14,265 could fight off an infection overnight. 644 00:35:14,350 --> 00:35:16,412 If I were a religious man, I'd say, 645 00:35:16,497 --> 00:35:19,466 "Wow, that's... That's a miracle." 646 00:35:19,818 --> 00:35:22,355 So, either I should go join a church or a temple or a mosque, 647 00:35:22,440 --> 00:35:26,311 or someone slipped antibiotics into Maxine Stanley's I.V., 648 00:35:26,396 --> 00:35:29,935 antibiotics which she specifically asked us not to give her. 649 00:35:30,020 --> 00:35:31,935 Don't say anything. Not a word. 650 00:35:32,982 --> 00:35:35,251 (SIGHS) 651 00:35:35,336 --> 00:35:37,733 Say something stupid like a confession, 652 00:35:37,818 --> 00:35:40,187 and I'm gonna have to fire you right on the spot. 653 00:35:40,321 --> 00:35:41,762 Not to mention fending off a lawsuit, 654 00:35:41,888 --> 00:35:45,310 which we would, and most certainly should, lose. 655 00:35:48,365 --> 00:35:51,630 More importantly, none of this helps Maxine, does it? 656 00:35:53,391 --> 00:35:54,935 So what happens now? 657 00:35:55,020 --> 00:35:56,191 (SCOFFS LIGHTLY) 658 00:35:56,334 --> 00:35:57,903 I don't know. 659 00:36:01,024 --> 00:36:05,294 Let's just say for the sake of it that you know this doctor. 660 00:36:05,941 --> 00:36:09,325 Would they feel at all guilty? 661 00:36:11,466 --> 00:36:12,601 Yes. 662 00:36:12,686 --> 00:36:14,364 Why? 663 00:36:14,921 --> 00:36:17,435 Because she's a good woman, and... 664 00:36:20,594 --> 00:36:22,463 It was her decision. 665 00:36:22,596 --> 00:36:24,014 You knew it was her decision. 666 00:36:24,099 --> 00:36:25,896 You were told it was her decision. 667 00:36:25,981 --> 00:36:27,067 You didn't listen. 668 00:36:27,201 --> 00:36:29,281 What makes you think next time will be any different? 669 00:36:29,370 --> 00:36:31,388 Because I saw her this morning, and for the first time, 670 00:36:31,472 --> 00:36:36,192 I saw... Her pain. 671 00:36:46,654 --> 00:36:48,099 Okay. 672 00:36:52,308 --> 00:36:54,380 You're gonna have to make this right. 673 00:36:59,833 --> 00:37:01,935 (INSTRUMENTS CLINKING) 674 00:37:41,778 --> 00:37:43,153 Hey. 675 00:38:16,622 --> 00:38:19,669 I'm sorry things didn't turn out like you wanted. 676 00:38:20,782 --> 00:38:22,403 That's okay. 677 00:38:23,755 --> 00:38:28,489 Lots of great books have final lousy chapters. 678 00:38:33,416 --> 00:38:36,403 This is an aid-in-dying request. 679 00:38:37,067 --> 00:38:39,303 There are procedures that allow you 680 00:38:39,388 --> 00:38:43,317 to end things when you want to end things. 681 00:38:44,469 --> 00:38:46,169 It can be complicated. 682 00:38:46,254 --> 00:38:49,528 Quite a few regulatory hoops. 683 00:38:51,794 --> 00:38:53,562 I'll get you through them. 684 00:39:07,361 --> 00:39:09,195 (ZIPPER CLOSES) 685 00:39:14,134 --> 00:39:17,103 BETH ORTON'S "OOH CHILD" PLAYS... 686 00:39:37,591 --> 00:39:40,427 ♪♪ Ooh-ooh, child 687 00:39:40,561 --> 00:39:45,265 ♪♪ Things are gonna get easier 688 00:39:45,399 --> 00:39:47,233 ♪♪ Ooh-ooh, child 689 00:39:47,368 --> 00:39:49,911 ♪♪ Things'll be brighter 690 00:39:52,639 --> 00:39:55,591 ♪♪ Ooh-ooh, child 691 00:39:55,676 --> 00:40:00,214 ♪♪ Things are gonna get easier 692 00:40:00,378 --> 00:40:01,863 ♪♪ Ooh-ooh, child 693 00:40:01,986 --> 00:40:04,656 ♪♪ Things'll get brighter 694 00:40:07,421 --> 00:40:10,457 ♪♪ Someday, yeah 695 00:40:10,591 --> 00:40:14,961 ♪♪ We'll put it together and we'll get it undone 696 00:40:15,095 --> 00:40:19,466 ♪♪ Someday when your head is much lighter 697 00:40:22,102 --> 00:40:25,005 ♪♪ Someday, yeah 698 00:40:25,138 --> 00:40:29,810 ♪♪ We'll walk in the rays of a beautiful sun 699 00:40:29,943 --> 00:40:34,036 ♪♪ Someday when the world is much brighter 700 00:40:51,465 --> 00:40:53,163 Did I ever tell you about the day Kellan was... 701 00:40:53,247 --> 00:40:54,247 You did. 702 00:40:54,334 --> 00:40:55,569 ♪♪ Ooh-ooh, child 703 00:40:55,702 --> 00:40:57,272 But tell me again. 704 00:40:57,357 --> 00:41:00,974 ♪♪ Things are gonna get easier 705 00:41:01,107 --> 00:41:03,176 ♪♪ Ooh-ooh, things'll be brighter 706 00:41:03,371 --> 00:41:05,099 Hey, Deb... 707 00:41:05,489 --> 00:41:08,989 No, I-I'm not gonna be late. 708 00:41:10,267 --> 00:41:11,935 I just, um... 709 00:41:14,296 --> 00:41:18,239 I just (CLEAR THROAT) wanted to hear your voice. 710 00:41:22,746 --> 00:41:25,815 ♪♪ Someday, yeah 711 00:41:25,900 --> 00:41:30,371 ♪♪ We'll walk in the rays of a beautiful sun 712 00:41:30,514 --> 00:41:35,271 ♪♪ Someday when the world is much brighter 713 00:41:40,974 --> 00:41:43,943 (NEWS PLAYS ON TV) 714 00:41:46,781 --> 00:41:49,484 ♪♪ Ooh-ooh, child 715 00:41:49,735 --> 00:41:54,740 ♪♪ Things are gonna get easier♪♪ 716 00:41:54,864 --> 00:42:01,452 ♪♪ Ooh-ooh, things'll be brighter